But more often than not I'll be sitting doing nothing, driving people around (mostly my sister, damn her and her performances) which just means sitting in a car instead of at home.
I AM WASTING MY TIME. But what can I do? Leave my family? Like damn. It's hard enough with recent events, now I gotta go and leave them to do my own thing?
There is a compromise, of course. I could get a part time job. BUT. That means stealing a car just for myself. We have 2 cars, one for my mum to go to work and one for family use, like grocery shopping or going out to eat or whatever. My dad used to have a car but it was a company car apparently, and they took it back, the bastards.
Anyway, I justified to myself that if my brother and I (and he's doing nothing too btw) got jobs at the same mall, then there would be nobody at home who could drive anyway, so both cars can be gone. But he's all like nah, I've earned my doing nothing days fam, I'm good.
Bastard. Not really of course. But ugh. I might just have to do it. I can't live like this. I am rotting away here. I'm gonna get a retail job and be like pshh yeah, I worked as a cashier/ marketing guy/ fast food person or whatever, I've totally paid my dues.
I'll take a job that doesn't even require a secondary school education and be way over qualified so my employers will be like damn that's a good deal. When really of course I have no skills whatsoever. Or a resume. Or a cv. Whatever the difference is.
And there really ain't no way I'm gonna find a job related to my field of study but hey, money's money, and I'm not getting any allowance right now.
Anyway, I got free internet from 1am to 7am and I'm really binging on netflix right now so that's a silver lining eh?
Peace out.
