Motivation

How do I get motivation? Is it something that's just there or is it something I have to picture very clearly in my head? Because I have no motivation.

All the "studying" I do includes half-assed attempts at reading the textbook and getting sleepy and bleary, then starting to make "notes" with important points and never finish them.

People who study usually have some sort of motivation behind them that they firmly believe in. Getting that special present from filthy-rich mummy or daddy, going to a college of special interest, or making sure their parents notice them.

Perhaps my life has been far too simple. Maybe I need to get jolted into reality or something because I have NEVER had motivation before. Sure my parents have offered me presents before, but it didn't work out, coz I'm too lazy. I don't see the point. Sure when I get the results and end up being way below my goal, I regret not studying enough, but that doesn't mean I do study in the future!

Most of the time I don't even have anything special to do. I'd pick up long lost hobbies like making friendship bracelets and watching online videos(which I'm banned from) rather than study. Why? I try studying. I sit at the table, look at the books and go "Uhhhhhhhh....." I read, and the words just turn into a pile of glop.

Any suggestions? Do you feel the same too? What do you do to get motivation? Leave me a comment!