The responsible one

          I have a friend who is so incredibly responsible. She starts assignments the day she gets them, always has something to show for class, and never misses class without a valid reason. This is all well and good, of course, especially when you're in a group with her. She'll make sure everything gets done, even if she has to do it herself. But I'm the opposite of her, practically. I'm so lazy. If I don't have to do it, there's a 95% chance I won't. I'm usually ok with it because I'm a bit more responsible than some of my classmates. But I talk to this friend so much more often, and I'm not gonna lie, sometimes it makes me feel really bad. Imagine me watching videos all day, then I hear her saying she's stressed because she only did 2 assignments. Imagine the guilt for all the time I wasted.

          The thing is, I need that, don't I? If she doesn't tell me about her doing assignments, I wouldn't even start to think about doing them. So I'm grateful, in a way. So many days I'll feel like skipping class and sleeping in, but I don't, because I'll feel guilty. Guilty for wasting my time, guilty for wasting money, and guilty for basically leaving her there alone. Sometimes I really can't handle it and I skip class anyway, but it's rare and far in between.

          Basically, thank you. It's negative motivation but still motivation all the same.