No Motivation

          My semester is now 2 weeks old. And I have 0 enthusiasm. Why? I think you can guess why. My dad.

          It's very easy to say oh, everybody dies, sooner or later. There's no need to be sad. But I can't help it you know? I am sad. Everything and anything seems to make me angry or sad nowadays. I try hiding it of course, but I know how I feel even if no one else does.

          I know I should concentrate on my studies but when a loved one could die any day now, it makes everything else seem so... Inconsequential. Who cares what grade I get? Who cares if I show up to class? Who cares if I don't do my assignments? My dad. Is dying. Nothing else MATTERS. 

          Anyway. I'm still gonna do my assignments, I'm still gonna show up to class. I just... Don't want to anymore.