I Am A Shopaholic

          I have never, in my life, had this problem before where I overspend and just... BUY things non stop. Recently I've been on a looooong semester break (2 and a half months) and I've just been spending money left and right. TERRIBLE.

          I've come up with a theory that I feel like makes complete sense.

          Ever since I was little, my dad spoiled me. I was definitely a spoilt princess in that anything I asked for, I would probably get. What's different with me though is that my parents didn't buy me things to make up for their absence like the stereotypical spoilt rich kids. My parents were always there, we weren't a high class family, my dad just... Gave us everything we wanted.

          Obviously, I now feel like whatever I want, I should just get. Which is terrible! But it never used to be a problem because I never went out to malls, I couldn't shop online, (because no debit card) and I HATE causing other people problems (which is a whole 'nother can of worms there) so I'd never ask my parents to buy me something trivial like a book or some sharpies. Now? Oh boy.

          I can drive now. I have a car that I basically only share with my brother. I also have a debit card now. Which means I can probably buy anything I wanted in the entire world. Coupled with my dad's allowance and my entire life savings in my bank account?

         Chaos.

         I wouldn't spend thousands in one thing, rather, I'd buy a LOT of little things that I now know add up VERY quickly. I have bought around 10-15 adult colouring books, 2 sets of fineliners, 2 sets of markers (monami live colour markers though, so good), Sakura Koi brushpen set, 3 sets of colour pencils, and a bunch of other small things. Individually, they were pretty reasonable. But in hindsight, it amounted to a HUGE sum of money.

          So, I hereby make a promise to myself. Don't buy anything unless you absolutely need it.

Signed,